This is my personal emailed newsletter called “The Way of Love.” The name is based on the name of my blog, “The Beginnings Of.” I started my blog when I started my DTS with YWAM and I knew it was the beginning of something big but I didn’t know what. I have been wondering ever since then what exactly it was the beginning of and I felt like God gave me the answer in October of 2015 at a prophetic conference while I was listening to one of the speakers: “The Way of Love.”
Issue #16 – September, Japan and Taiwan
02 October 2016
Japan and Taiwan!
My biggest news this month is that we have announced our outreach locations for this DTS! And if you haven’t figured it out by now, we will be going to Japan and Taiwan!
If you don’t know what I mean by an outreach or DTS, let me explain really quick. In YWAM we run what’s called Discipleship Training Schools or DTS. Our winter DTS is called One Thing. It comes from Psalm 27 and its focus is on building intimacy with the Lord. Below is an exert from our website describing what our One Thing DTS is about:
“A Discipleship Training School is a season of intentionally setting
aside six months of your life to grow in your relationship with God.
We are passionate as a community and school about seeking the
presence of God, knowing Him intimately, and loving Him deeply.
During this DTS, you’ll learn more about who God is, who He’s
created you to be, and how you can be His light in this world. “
Our DTS has two parts: lecture phase and outreach phase. Lecture phase consists of week long teachings on various topics. The outreach phase is when we go to other places and put into practice what God has been teaching us:
“Outreach activities include evangelism, mercy ministries,
teaching, children’s ministries, preaching, prophesying and
reaching out to present Jesus in a variety of
other creative, apostolic ways.”
So this year Kelsea and myself will be leading our wonderful team of 14 students to East Asia. I am really excited to see what God has in store for both of these countries. From a really personal stand point, I am especially excited about Taiwan because my mom and her family lived there for four years while she was growing up. It was a place I never thought I would get to see and a place I prayed in my heart that I would one day get to go. Now I have the opportunity to go for the best reason that I could imagine. God is so good!
We leave in the beginning of December and will return to France in the beginning of March. We will spend a month in Japan and two months in Taiwan. 🙂
So this month has also been kinda tough for me. About a week ago, I had some bad anxiety because of stress. It was the stress of the work of DTS, of taking two college classes online, and of trying to raise support, that all hit me in one day. But mostly, it was the stress of raising support.
When God asks us to do something, He provides for it. That also means that He provides us with the grace to handle whatever it is that He asked us to do. I realized that I had the grace for the DTS work and for the college work, but it was this support raising that made me feel like I couldn’t do any more.
So as a “last resort,” I did what should have been my first resort. I prayed. I asked God what was going on and He really helped me understand. I had been doing as much as I could think of to raise more support and nothing was “working.” But that wasn’t what God asked me to do. He asked me to just take a simple, single step each day and to be faithful with that.
So as I figured this out with Him, I started writing my thoughts down and wrote this “chart” of what He was showing me. It started with my acknowledging a couple things: first, “Only God can do this” and second, “There is nothing I can do to force it to happen.” That’s were I started. Then only three options came to my mind as to what could be the next step. Either “I do nothing,” “I do everything,” or “I ask God and do only what He says to do.” So I wrote out the consequences for each choice.
- If I do nothing — I miss out on the process of growing in relationship to God through this — I get lazy — God still does it because it is something only God can do.
- If I do everything — I try to take control of the situation from God — I burn out — God still does it.
- I do only what God asks me to do, no more and no less — I get to walk with Him through this in obedience — I grow in relationship with Him — I reap the benefits of this process in addition to the fact that God does it.
Those thing in the last option are things that I can only get by actually going though this with my trust in Him and not in myself, because that is really the issue here: am I going to trust myself to provide or will I trust my Heavenly Father?
Ultimately, I was trusting in my own strength to save me, thinking I could make a better website, contact more people, try harder. But none of that really makes a good difference. It’s a deeper relationship God wants with me, even more than He wants to provide right away. It’s only by this process that I can learn to trust Him in this way, and I am only just beginning to understand that.
So after I went through this “chart,” God brought me back to the heart of it, the why. Why do I believe that He will do it no matter which option I choose? At the top of this model that I drew, I wrote three things above “only God can do it.” I wrote, “God is good,” “God is faithful,” and “God is trustworthy.” That’s my why. That’s my focus. God has called me to this and He will be faithful to His part in this. He is a good good Father and will provide for me and not abandon me. He is trustworthy even when it looks like the opposite. So when these fears come up, that is what I have to go back to. God is good. God is faithful. God is trustworthy.
Coming Up In October
This month the DTS continues with more weeks of teaching. This coming week we will be talking about our “Identity in Christ.” That will be followed by a week on “Relationships,” then a week about “Pioneering in Missions.” Finally (for October), we will talking about what it looks like to live “Life in the Spirit.”
We are also still in the process of purchasing the cafe. There have been some complications and holidays, but things should get moving again here shortly.
Please keep praying for my finances. And also please pray and ask God if He would ask you to be apart of supporting me monthly or with a one time gift. If He says no, great! If He says yes, great! He is going to take care of my finances however He wants, but I know He will do it. 🙂
Please pray for Kelsea and I as we plan for the outreach to Japan and Taiwan. Pray that He will lead us to the right places, people, and opportunities.
Please pray for the cafe that things will get worked out well and smoothly. Thank you!
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